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Happiest I have Ever Been – Right Now

2020 with all of the heartbreak and craziness has had a silver lining for me.


The world slowed down for COVID and the most important person in the world to me started working from home.

The time I have spent with my wife this year has changed me. Changed me for the better.

The flowers above are a result of us doing things together. I particularly like this one of the 2 flowers together. I like to think that they are me and V. Two people in love with our faces towards the sun.

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Labor Day Golf

I have played golf since I was 12.

I have played golf is at least 10 states.

It is a thread that is weaved into my life.

When I walk the round, as I did today, I daydream of time and places I have played before.

There is a nostalgic quality to the feelings I get but there is also hope and gratitude as I feel present in the day.

Today was a good day.

2020 Weight Loss Journal

Breaking the Cycle

I have repeated the same pattern the last 2 years of my life.

It happens in 3 Acts.

Act 1: January 1.

Get pissed at myself that I gained weight throug the holidays. Learn to forgive myself but take action and recommit to my weight loss journey.

Act 2: February through August.

2 steps forward 1 step back but weight comes off slow. I get frustrated that I am not losing more weight. The weekly cycle is 5 days on plan and the weekend I fall off the wagon. Not an total bender but nonetheless I eat more or eat off plan.

Act 3: September through December

I say fuck it. I am never going to get this done. I tried so hard and I at the same low weight I have been at for years.

Act 2 – I lose 20 pounds

Act 3 – I gain 20 pounds

This year will be different.

September 2020 I have a goal and only one goal.

To not gain weight.

Today, September 1, 2020 – I weigh 261.
My goal is to weigh 261 on September 30, 2020.

Your friend.

My journey is broader than just being thin. I want to be strong. I want to be capable. More on that goal as I continue to document my journey.

2020 Weight Loss Journal

No Dairy – Restart

I failed in my 30 day no dairy challenge.

I did learn something.

I restricted it in August but it was not eliminated.

Greek Yogurt. Sometimes with fruit. Sometime with a squeeze of honey.

On my wife birthday I did have a scoop or 2 of real ice cream. It was like a sugar rocket. I would generally eat the left over ice cream over the next several days and this time I did not go back to it. Maybe one can learn.

This is what I know.

  • Dairy Upsets my stomach
  • Dairy causes inflammation
  • Dairy causes cravings

In short, I love dairy but she does not love me back. It is time I leave her behind for a new love.

2020 Weight Loss Journal

30 Day Challenge – No Fruit. No Dairy.

Fruit and Dairy.

Both cause me digestive and inflammation issues.

Fructose is not good for me. It is a driver of obesity and insulin resistance.

See Dr. Jason Fung explanation.

See The Bitter Truth – by Dr Robert Lustig – Longer video but eye opening.

This could be strawberry ice cream.

Blueberries and Greek Yogurt.

Dried Cranberries as a snack.

The list goes on. I am a fan of fruit. I was a fan of craft beer too but I said goodbye in 2018. Sometimes in life your love is not returned.

I commit to myself to not have fruit or dairy for the next 30 days. July 16, 2020 through August 15th, 2020.

You can ask @vickiegrier for confirmation of my updates if you need validation.

2020 Weight Loss Journal

The Devil Inside

Hi Friend.

I am back to writing.

The last 15 days of July I have wandered in the desert of the internet.

I was excited about sharing my food plan for July but I could not make a decision on a couple of things and guess what? I have not taken action. Shame on me. But I forgive myself and I am back from those dark days.

I am convinced that the inner voice that speaks to us is not our friend.

Steven Pressfield famously calls it the resistance.

In this blog post he sums the struggle for our lives in the best explanation I have seen about the Ego vs the Self. How the resistance is trying to kill us anyway it can. Worth a read.

Dr. Glenn Livingston calls it The Pig.

He has this post providing examples of how the pig lies to you to eat shit that you know is not good for you. Bottom line the Pig is trying to kill you slowly with food.

Understanding and accepting that you have a powerful voice inside your head that does not want you to change. So changes in your diet will sound the alarm and bring this voice to full power. It will lie. It will distract. It will give half truths.

The good news is that you are in control. Your rational brain is in control. Stay in the now. Be Present.

Follow the links for both Pressfield and Livingston to learn more.

I will be writing more about this and what I settled on with my eating plan.