One year ago I got a dexa scan. May 22 2019
My weight was 267
Today I weight 265. May 22, 2020.
In the past 12 months I weighted at my lowest 245 and 275 at my highest.
That is 30 pounds.
Be aware that even at 245 pounds I was fat. My ideal weight is somewhere in the 165-175 range. I will not know that until I get there. You know muscle mass, lose skin etc.
My Dexa scan showed I had 155 pounds of lean mass. Add 15 pounds of fat and that is around 170. That is where I am getting that number.
Enough is Enough
Today I start my journey. Sunday May 24th, 2020.
This scares the hell out of me. I have said this to myself so much. I know all of the stuff about how weigh loss is not a straight line. But come on.
- 2017 – 270 – 250
- 2018 – 270 – 250
- 2019 – 275 – 245
- 2020 – 275 – 265
This is stagnation. I am not going to spend time beating myself up on this. It is behind me. I forgive myself. I really do. I spent this time in my own narrative fallacy about my life. The reality is that knowing what to do. Watching YouTube videos about what you want to do. Following people on Instagram that are following your diet etc. That is not doing it.
I have to control my anger at times. There are people that I followed back in 2018 that were heavier than me and they implemented the same type of plan I wanted to implement and they are got it done.
In fact in Aug of 2019 I made a video about this very issue. And yet again in that video I made a promise to myself that I was going to do it. Instead I failed and here I sit pulling together my resolve.
What is my point? What is the Fucking Point?
The point is that I am starting again. Right now. Today. This minute. Not tomorrow. Not after I binge on some carbs or something. Right now.
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Stay in the Fight. Your Friend. T